Feeling betrayed is perhaps one of the worst feelings on earth. I am so thankful that Jesus understands our pain and that He gives us love and understanding to heal from it. It’s not by any means easy, but it is possible.
Just recently my daughter’s youth pastor inquired of my daughter’s small group leader about something that he shouldn’t have known about. We had intentionally left him out of the loop for very personal reasons. How he found out I do not know. However, I do know that everyone who did know was expressly told not to tell anyone else, specifically him. Confrontation was inevitable and necessary. However, Bean wanted to handle it on her own and did it last night.
What hurts is that I really felt that we could trust each of the people that we had shared this with. We were expecting prayer, love, acceptance, and understanding. Yet one of them betrayed that trust and spoke out of turn. Rather than coming directly to us when the information was shared, the youth leader went to someone else to confirm it. Thankfully the person he went to had the right attitude and said that she was uncomfortable speaking of it and that we should be asked.
I am still hurt by this. I don’t understand it. I feel hurt for my daughter also. I don’t think that the situation should have been handled the way it was. I am respecting my daughter’s request to stay out of it for now and just asking for God to heal my hurt along with helping me to let it go.
Thankfully Bean is a forgiving girl who has practiced letting go of hurt for some time. I am new to the business and need some extra grace in this area.