Have you ever been in a place where you hated everything about your life? All the clothes you loved to wear before are suddenly ugly. Your hair can’t do anything right. Those shoes that you loved before are suddenly uncomfortable and hideous. Every bite of familiar recipes and foods taste bad. I have been in this place before and I am seeing that type of place again. Maybe not quite as bad as what I have described, but pretty close.
I’m ready to shave my head and buy a set of wigs, replace all my shoes, have major surgery to revise my body, buy all new clothes, and quit eating all together. I hate the bed I sleep in, I hate the color of my furniture, I don’t like anything.
What I really dislike is the discontent. It’s horrible to feel that way. I can’t pin point why it started or when but I’m at a loss about how to fix it.
My hair really can’t get any shorter than it is. I don’t like coloring it, especially here in CA because I haven’t found anyone who doesn’t want to bleach it before adding the streaks of color. My hair person in Ohio did such a great job putting streaks of red and such in my hair without bleaching it out. I want new clothes but when I go shopping I can’t find anything I like. I want new shoes but I can’t find shoes that I like. I want a new bed but it’s not in the budget. I want a new couch and love seat but again, it’s not in the budget.
I am really hoping that my upcoming trip will help me to reset. Being in the midst of women who are so much like me and yet so different will be refreshing.
It will. Won’t it?