At this moment I feel blessed. I have been tendered and my heart is aching, but oh so glad to be more than flesh and bone. Last night something was shared with me that introduced a whole new reason to be happy that I am a child of God and that all hope is not lost that He can use me. But more over, I am joyful because I also gained a new reverence and fear for the Lord of Hosts. I experienced something through my friend’s sharing of her own experiences that was powerful and heart-rending.
I think I have a new appreciation for what Abraham must have felt, going along in his nomad way, toodling along in the desert and then BAM!, I AM shows up and rocks his world. I think I know how Jacob felt wrestling with God. I have a greater understanding of how Isaiah felt when suddenly he has his tongue cleansed by a live, hot, burning coal. You see, I think all of them experienced a fear of a Holy, unrelenting God and that is precisely what I have felt since last night. The weight of Glory.
It’s hard to type through tears. So here is a song that really brought home what God was touching me with today.