Seeing a huge group of teens laughing, having fun, eating, playing, singing…that was a good way to spend the evening. Now the mess to clean up after, not so much, but I don’t even mind, it was a joy to experience the smiles and hugs and love that filled the back yard and the house. I don’t even miss the sleep that I missed. Plus, my daughter has this boyfriend who makes it a priority to help around the house and make things easier on us. I think he enjoys the food so much that he wants to make sure I don’t stop feeding him . I’m still thinking about a nickname for him.
After yesterday’s tragedy in Connecticut, it was a joy to see a bunch of happy kids. I didn’t hear about the shooting until I got home yesterday evening. It was a day of rushing around and fighting Christmas crowds and traffic, preparing for that group of kids. I’m blessed to have had that experience, especially in light of the loss so many parents and children were experiencing yesterday and in the weeks to come.
In the midst of all the chatter, the conversation turned to the shooting and I heard something that gave me a moment for pause. One of the boys in the group said that he just couldn’t feel anything about it because it seems that there is a school shooting every week.
I know that there aren’t that number of shootings, however, what he said struck me. I felt pain in my heart, I lifted up prayers for comfort for this community, and then…well, I guess I know what he was talking about. It seems that we face so much tragedy each day that it is desensitizing us. Sure, I saw all the posts on Facebook, I know that it was something that everyone gave pause to, but I wonder how many of us are like this young man? Unable to feel anything about it because it happens so much. Isn’t that a tragedy in itself?
I often question my heart and how I respond to the evil that is roaming this earth and then wise friends remind me that all I can do is pray for those effected, but that I still have a life to live, children to raise, a Savior to serve. So giving pause to examine my heart this morning, making sure I am not being desensitized to the evil in this world, and remembering the hope that I have been given and learning how to spread that hope to others.